Beebs
unexpected.
I feel unbelievably happy and relieved. I couldn’t explain the feeling I receive when I talk to you on the phone or text you. You really do make most of my days by just being yourself and making me constantly smile and laugh at my phone. I could have never expected you to show up , but I’m really glad you did. Now I’ve seen better and I know that there is better out there for me , but the most important part is I realize that YOU are what I’m looking for. I know that somehow in some way, shape, or form God wrote and planned this for the both of us. You tell me that I’m a trophy who has been mistakenly thrown away , but all I care about is if you are going to rightfully claim me. I’m easily confused by the mixed signals , but I just hope maybe somehow you have been thinking the exact same way I have. Even though I’m not ready for any of this , I feel ready for you , but what I’m best at is just hopefully waiting and maybe some truth will be revealed.
secretly dying.
I’m secretly dying and absolutely nobody knows. I feel so lost even when i’m always surrounded by the ones I love. I’m so confused and broken when I deserve to be completely happy. I try my best to be strong , but what if I just want to breakdown and show my weakness. It becomes so frustrating and i’m scared with every decision I make. I really wish life was easier but it’s turning out to be the total opposite. People tell me they understand but they really don’t. I’m just so done with this world and the bullshit it brings.
